In part one, I discussed when I made the decision and how that came about. In part two, I will discuss the why.
See, this isn’t something that came completely out of the blue. Throughout my younger days, I was always writing stories, reading and being fascinated by the written word. But, while I enjoyed the stories; I always pictured myself in film. Making movies. Telling stories through celluloid.
Filmmaking has always fascinated me. The collaborative art form. The visual interpretations and overall directorial manipulation. The art of film is the art of all the arts. It contains Photography, Writing, Acting, Music and host of other art forms to produce a feature film. This is what fascinated me. But, there are a couple of issues with filmmaking that would make it more difficult for me to achieve my lofty goals.
#1 – Money. Filmmaking isn’t cheap. Even today. You can make a decent, indie, film for $10,000.00. But, that is still $10,000.00. At that price, the story has to be written for that particular budget. No special effects or car chases, or anything to do with cars. It can be done and would not be a huge issue, except for…
#2 – Crew. Filmmaking is not a solo affair. You need a crew. You can have a minimal crew. But, you still need a camera man, sound guy and actors. If you are like me, not an extrovert and most of your friends are not into filmmaking, then you are kinda stuck trying to figure out who and what needs to be done. You could hire a crew, but that just adds to your budget and pushes the ability to tell your story away from the minimal dollars you would like to spend.
Now, I know one thing and one thing for sure: These two reasons are just excuses. You see, the real reason I never jumped into filmmaking or made any of the screenplays I wrote into anything more than the paper they were printed on; I was content. That’s right. I was reasonably happy with my job, with no motivation to do anything more. I really wanted to tell these stories I had in my head, but no intense desire, beyond the writing of them.
When I was laid off and I started up my video business, I should’ve made a film right then and there. I had the money to hire a crew and actors. But, I didn’t. Instead, I started a business catering to other businesses. I was too afraid of not making an income, that I wanted to start a business to support the creative side. Unfortunately, by not making a film and concentrating on the business side, I missed a great opportunity. But, let’s face facts: No one makes a corporate video and thinks ‘this is what I always wanted to do with my life.’ My heart wasn’t in the business the way it should’ve been. Being self-employed, you can’t just kinda be into it. It takes up all your time. You need to love it. Or at least have the fear to push you to not fail. I had neither. I enjoyed it, but it never really was what I wanted to do.
Which leads me to: what did I want to do? When I found that time capsule, it hit me like a Dustin Brown body check; what I really enjoyed more than anything was making up stories. Diving into characters. Creating premises where the characters find themselves and discovering how they react. I thought this was related to film, but being a writer would allow me to tell my stories without impediment. Besides, the internal ones. I researched the self-publishing market and was amazed at what I found. It really is a great time to write your stories and then have them available to millions of people thru Amazon, Apple, Kobo and other e-book sellers. I became excited, and I couldn’t wait to be begin. There was only one issue: How do I write a novel? A screenplay is a sketch of the final project. A Novel? That is something else entirely.